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22.11.09

I dreamt about Hawk wanted to peck my left eye. The dream predictations said that implied someone who is very closed to me is now very jealous of me and want to hurt me verbally. Beware of coming dangers .. T=T

I called my mom immediately when I woke up. I told her everything. She said call your Bf and tell him about the dream. I did and he consoled me nicely. But you know? what Im afriad of is betrayal.

I have been betrayed already by my ex-bestfriend. Now we reconcile again but Im afraid that the history will repeat ... again ...

She has done it previously many times. Still, when we reconcile, I gave her a chance for starting the new friendship. Times after times it makes me feel so scared of this dangerous friendship. I dont know what to do about her anymore. Im so confused .. ToT

what I can do is be calm and solitude. I shouldn't be so naive anymore. Trusting ppl easily causes me dangers ... What would you do if you were me?

17.Aug.2009

After spending 3 weeks with my lover. Im going back to my normal life again. These weeks were so intense. The only thing I've learnt and such a precious lesson is that true love is the most precious gift from God beside life itself. You can just exist but not alive without love. I believe in my soul and instinct. I believe in destinies as well. The most of all, I believe, that everything happens for a reason...

OMG ! I gotta Do this ALL TOT !

1. Paranoid Personality Disorder

    Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant. They usually shift blame to other people and tend to carry long grudges.

Symptoms of Paranoid Personality Disorder:

• Unwillingness to forgive perceived insults
• Excessive sensitivity to setbacks
• Distrustfulness and excessive self-reliance
• Projection of blame onto others
• Consumed by anticipation of betrayal
• Combative and tenacious adherence to personal rights
• Relentlessly suspicious

2. Schizoid Personality Disorder

    People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. Unlike avoidants, schizoids genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived by others as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Symptoms of Schizoid Personality Disorder:

• Weak interpersonal skills
• Difficulty expressing anger, even when provoked
• "Loner" mentality; avoidance of social situations
• Appear to others as remote, aloof, and unengaged
• Low sexual desire
• Unresponsive to praise or criticism

3. Schizotypal Personality Disorder

    Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Symptoms of Schizotypal Personality Disorder:

• Odd or eccentric mannerisms or appearance
• Superstitious or preoccupied with paranormal phenomena
• Difficult to follow speech patterns
• Feelings of anxiety in social situations
• Suspiciousness and paranoia
• Odd beliefs or magical thinking
• Appears shy, aloof, or withdrawn to others

4. Antisocial Personality Disorder

    A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. Antisocials tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Symptoms of Antisocial Personality Disorder:

• Disregard for the feelings of others
• Impulsive and irresponsible decision-making
• Lack of remorse for harm done to others
• Lying, stealing, other criminal behaviors
• Disregard for the safety of self and others

5. Borderline Personality Disorder

    Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing injury to their own body. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. Borderlines think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder:

• Self-injury or attempted suicide
• Strong feelings of anger, anxiety, or depression that last for several hours
• Impulsive behavior
• Drug or alcohol abuse
• Feelings of low self-worth
• Unstable relationships with friends, family, and boyfriends/girlfriends

6. Histrionic Personality Disorder

    People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Symptoms of Histrionic Personality Disorder:

• Needs to be the center of attention
• Dresses or acts provocatively
• Rapidly-shifting and shallow emotions
• Exaggerates friendships
• Overly-dramatic, occassionally theatrical speech
• easily influenced; highly suggestible

7. Narcissistic Personality Disorder

    Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. Narcissists tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Symptoms of Narcissistic Personality Disorder:

• Requires excessive praise and admiration
• Takes advantage of others
• Grandiose sense of self-importance
• Lack of empathy
• Lying, to self and others
• Obsessed with fantasies of fame, power, or beauty

8. Avoidant Personality Disorder

    Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. Avoidants are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidants yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Symptoms of Avoidant Personality Disorder:

• Social inhibition; retreating from others in anticipation of rejection
• Preoccupation with being rejected or criticized in social situations
• Fear of embarrassment results in avoidance of new activities
• Poor self-image; feelings of social ineptitude
• Desire for improved social relations
• Appear to others as self-involved and unfriendly
• Creation of elaborate fantasy lives

9. Dependent Personality Disorder

    Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. Dependents often remain in abusive relationships. Over-sensitivity to disapproval is common. Dependents often feel helpless and depressed.

Symptoms of Dependent Personality Disorder:

• Difficulty making decisions
• Feelings of helplessness when alone
• Suicidal thoughts upon rejection
• Submissiveness
• Deeply hurt by mild criticism or disapproval
• Unable to meet ordinary demands of life

10. Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCDP)

      While Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder (OCDP) sounds similar in name to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder, the two are markedly different disorders. People with obsessive-compulsive personality disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

Symptoms of Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder:

• Need for perfection and excessive discipline
• Preoccupation with orderliness
• Inflexibility
• Lack of generosity
• Hyper-focus on details and rules
• Excessive devotion to work

I am like a bird ,,

I want to fly,,

but I cant ,,

Cz I have been stucked in the cage,,

The cage's owner locked the door since the first day I was caught,,

I have wings but I couldnt fly,,

Besides, another bird is waiting for me outside the cage,,

we see each other through the little space,,

he couldnt unlock the door neither,,

since he is a bird,, like me

思虹

   ————元前风    

  日丽空高锐利风，   

   晴天霹雳转乾坤。   

   风雨无阻挣泥沦，   

   忘尽愁云亦无虹。

           "My Star"

My star, you are on the horizon,

My star, you are so far away from me.

Together we fly into the sky,

No matter sun nor rain,

Couldn't divide ....

Your light is so bright and pure;

it is simply wonderful ...

I am merry to own you, my beloved angel,

and I will never ever part from you.

In my dreams you are so close to me,

it is simply wonderful!

By day I shall l draw on your love,

until we soon meet again and again ...

Until the time is through,

I'll belong to you ...

Written by C.Goeke ... on 4.04.2009

This is the frist poem he wrote for me, We have proved that the different time and distance couldn't separate us but increase our desires for each other more and more ....

If you want a nice bedroom preferably, it will be rectangular. If not, try to make it square. Lastly if you have no choice, other shapes are your options. Why do you think it should be rectangular? Because you can decorate it better. Think of your desk or your bed what shapes are they made out of? You will just feel that something doesn't fit when an object is round.

The experts have a few explanations for this. What you have to remember is that when you're in your house the master bedroom is the 'creme de la creme'. Also remember that this is where you rest. You have to agree with me that if something in the bedroom it shows in every other department of your life. So when the masters of Feng Shui give you advice on how you should organize your bedroom, take a good listen to them.

There is another important point to take into account if you really want to 'Feng Shuise' your house to the maximum. The location on the four cardinal points is essential.

When placing the bed, you should also look at how your room is decorated and then use bed sheets appropriately. The experts in Feng Shui, teaches that every little things count.

As mentioned before, if you want your room to be in perfect harmony for Feng Shui, it needs to be rectangular. However since the tastes are in the nature, if you want to have a room with another shape then it's up to you. A little tip if you live in a room that is not totally rectangular. Use dividers and you will often find that with a little imagination, you can make your room look rectangular. This might seem a little odd, but you should avoid putting mirrors in your bedroom because it could interfere with the curing powers of Feng Shui.

If we get a little deeper into Feng Shui, you should know that humans all have what masters call Kua number. Eventually, this will dictate where we should place the bed in our bedroom. For useful purposes, the second best position takes place if the best option is not available (say a heater or something like that is in the way.) If you really want the best possible harmony in your bedroom leave everything up to the experts as they are used to that and will know what's best for your health.

Another suggestion that Feng Shui experts give us is that we should not have a room decorated like a carnival as we will not be inclined to go to sleep. Instead, we will concentrate on all the beautiful colors we have in our room. It might be a little boring but a color that is dull is preferred. But again as we mentioned earlier, the tastes are in the nature so you could always go with a color that makes you 'tired'. Finally if you want help the romance in your couple to be a little more spicy, place decorations facing west or south.

I wrote this story in order to share some beauty tips for make-up lovers =) Hope you like it, ...

First of all, I would like to recommend 3 of my favorite liquid foundations,

- Dior Air Flash

- Bobbi Brown Luminious Moisture Foundation

- Maybayline Aqua Liquid Foundation

*I love Them All* Lol !

To Apply Foundation, just follow these steps ;)

 -  Apply your foundation either directly to your brush or the top of your hand. It's really your preference. I prefer to use the top of my hand. That way I know I'm using just enough and not too much.

- If your are applying it to the top of your hand make sure to use just enough to cover the brush evenly. If you are applying directly to the brush, be sure to apply the foundation on your brush in moderation as needed.

- Start on your cheek. Use small circular swipes toward the inside of you of your face (near your nose) and slowly work your way out for a more even finish. Do the same motion to cover your whole face.

- To finish, use the same motion all around the outline of your face to diminish any existing lines. Now you have a professionally done look!

Have Fun ! ;)

My best friend has four legs

He likes to nuzzle me with his nose wet

He likes to cuddle me with his hairy head

He has become a part of me since the day we have first met

& will always be untill the day of my last breath ...

I answered the question about how to grow a silky long hair in one of my stories ;) So, I think it might be useful for my friends or some of you who interested in this issue,

Here are some tips ;)

    - You need to start off with the health of your hair. So, go to a place like Super Cuts and get a       good trim of about ½ inch at least. Now you're ready for maximum growth.

    - Wear protective styles every single day. No exception. This means French rolls, buns or other types of updos where your hair ends are not exposed to the air.

    - Eliminate any and all types of heat. Put away the curling iron. Hide the flat iron. Put the blow dryer in the back of the closet. They will not help you reach your goal.

    - Keep your ends moisturized. On a daily basis, add moisture to your ends in terms of a lotion moisturizer, oil like jojoba or a leave-in conditioner.

    - Keep your tresses super conditioned by using a moisturizing conditioner bi-weekly and a protein conditioner once a month to keep your hair nice and strong.

    - Treat your hair like super fine lace! Be gentle and take your time when combing, detangling, and styling.

    - Do not play in your hair. Style it for the day and leave it alone. Constantly fussing with it will only make it dry which leads to split ends.

   - Wear a protective satin or silk scarf when you go to bed at night. If you don't do either of those, then sleep on a satin pillowcase. These will keep you from getting tangles and dryness.

   - Make sure you're getting all of the proper nutrition by eating lots of vegetables and getting protein. Take a multi-vitamin to make sure you're getting all of the vitamins you need.

   - Use moisturizing products only. Learn about the ingredients in shampoos and stay away from harsh shampoos. Try brands by Neutrogena, Nexxus, Keracare.

That's all ;) Hope they help ...